Here below lies the (slightly fictitious) confession of a heavy person:
Ah… I’m too heavy. I stand here not in front of the bathroom scales or mirror but sitting back in a chair wondering why I feel so weighed down inside. Heavy on the outside??? No, not so much as I know what to do to deal with that – exercise and watch the diet right? I’m talking here and now about the kind of heavy that weighs down my mind and makes me not want to move from this spot. It’s not a comfortable spot but it’s where I can take a moment ( or ten) to take a load off. What am I saying…I can’t take this load off my mind even if I’m taking this time off my feet. I’m still carrying a lot around in my head: My daily ToDo’s, my long delayed projects, that promise I made but haven’t gotten around to fulfilling ( to a dear one and to myself), that forgiveness I’ve yet to address, that grief I want to ignore and that stress that keeps me running through my day like a hamster on a wheel.
Yep, I’m heavy with the weight of the world on my shoulders. Ok wait..I gotta stop here and ponder “Am I trying to channel Atlas or be God ?”
Absolutely not. That would be – as a friend likes to call it – “crazy talk”.
But aren’t I kinda guilty of this very thing if the thoughts I’m ruminating on and actions I take reinforce such a heaviness beyond what I’m meant to hold.
Is this making any sense to you?
What if I label all this heaviness as Stress? Would this make more sense to you now? It does to me. Look at the amount of stress each one of us carries day to day. Stress in and of itself does not necessarily have to be bad but when the way in which one handles it is not good , well… the end results is not likely to feel good either.
Procrastination, feeling that it ( whatever IT is) is too much to handle alone, or not knowing what or who to turn to for needed support are all common reasons for the kind of heaviness that can begin to weigh us down. Carrying around all this extra everything eventually saps our precious energy- the very energy we need to act, to move forward, to break through the stress and get to the other side , the lighter side of Life.
The idea or the answers for now is to get out of my own way and take steps that address whatever is taking away from my joy and my lightness of spirit.
I may not have all the answers but I do know answers are out there to be found.
The less time I spend looking for them is the more time I’ll stay in this undesirable stagnant state. I don’t want to be like an airplane set for lift off but grounded on the tarmac or left in an unspecified holding pattern instead of in route to that longed for destination. That sure doesn’t sound like a great use of time or energy to me.
Instead using what time and energy there is available to feed what one wants to grow is good advice to heed.
I want to feed my creativity, my heart’s desires, my capacity to explore, and improve my relationships, my career and my spirit. Ok and yes, I won’t deny -a healthier, fitter body properly weighed is on my list too.
So where to start? Umm… a life coach maybe.
A life coach versus a therapist in this case because I want to work on present goals not past issues. I’m not dealing with any psychological or medical diagnosis or issues with a professional outside of their scope of expertise. Most importantly I’m willing to do the work of Changing and own it, even set the agenda for each session. Having help to set goals based on my needs alone is an important step towards crafting the life I long for.
Change is a natural part of Life and I want to harness the power of whatever resources I can to make some of that Change intentionally work for my benefit. Decision is now made to go forward.
How about you?
Signed,
Feeling Lighter Already.